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Friday, July 4, 2014

You are More

Relevant Ministry Blog Schedule:
Tuesday - "About Spiritual Health in Life and Ministry"

Thursday - "About Relevant Women

by Cyndi Coleman
When I was a little girl I wanted to be a princess so badly. Every princess movie and story completely inspired me. I felt that I was living an ordinary life, but I was made for more. I felt like I was created to live an exciting, adventurous life. So, I prepared myself and waited for my fairytale to begin. However, it didn’t take many years for me to realize I wasn’t perfect, I messed up a lot, and hurt the people I loved the most. I began to believe I wasn’t good enough or special enough for the childhood fantasy. No wonder it never came true.

Since I was nothing very unique or special, I decided to settle on whoever and whatever would give me the approval I was so desperate for.

While I was very busy winning the approval of people, I was being very disobedient to God. In fact, though I was a born-again believer, I had totally lost sight of Him. I did what the people thought was good and fun.

Pretty soon, I had ruined my reputation and my life. I had crushed and shamed my parents and others who really loved me.Since I now viewed myself as totally worthless, I began to settle for, and do things, I swore I would never, ever do. What did it matter now, anyway? I was in REAL trouble and I did not know how to make it any better; I was a total mess and felt completely lost. I guess you could say, I had hit bottom.

On a particularly horrific day, I experienced something that shocked me into utter despair, but also a moment of clarity. I thought, “What on earth am I doing here? How did I sink this low? I cannot go on living this way!” I found myself locked in a room sobbing into the carpet. Finally, I prayed and admitted to God that all my plans had failed and I was tired of being in charge. I told Him I would do anything He told me to do. I confessed that whatever he had for me was surely better than the misery I was living in.

Now, I admit that this does not happen to people all the time, and only to me once, but I heard the audible voice of God. He said, “I will give you the strength to do what you need to do.” I immediately stopped shaking and crying and felt a sense of peace fall over me. I had nothing good to offer and had done nothing good for a very long time, but He gave me the strength to walk out of a dangerous and damaging lifestyle I had been in bondage to all of my teenage years. He literally saved me. The following verses describe my moment of surrender exactly:

“I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand”
(Psalm 40:1-3).

My life did not instantaneously fall into place. I had a long road of recovery and restoration. However, that moment did bring the strength and hope I needed to move forward. I say with full confidence that if that moment of surrender had not come I would likely not be alive today.

Did I deserve to be saved? Why did He pluck me from the mud and mire I threw myself into? I can assure I did not deserve it. He saved me for the very same reason he saves everyone who calls on His mighty name.  He saved me because HE is worthy and I am His. He chooses to love me inspite of myself and “he rescued me because he delighted in me” (Psalm 18:19).

I had the hardest time with what came next. I was content to be saved from the wreckage and to exist in quiet humility for the rest of my life, but that was not His plan at all. Not only did He save me, He gave me good things and wonderful people to replace the chaos that had been my life. These were blessings I felt so unworthy of and could never have had the courage to ask for. I felt that I had so disappointed God that I should just be grateful to be set free from the bondage. But that is not really freedom; it is relief, but not freedom. Freedom comes with the gift of forgiveness. What I didn’t expect and couldn’t comprehend at the time was God’s forgiveness is complete and filled with grace.  In Hebrews 8:12, God speaks very directly abut the magnitude and permanence of the forgiveness only He can offer us: “For I will forgive their wickedness and will remember their sins no more.” Once I was able to grasp that truth, I was then truly, and completely, set free.

Though I do not reside in a castle, my Prince surely did come and rescue me. And, when it seemed all hope was lost I realized I am a REAL princess too, for my Father in heaven is the King of everything.

Dear sister, don’t you know who you are? Don’t you know what’s been done for you? Very simply, you are the beloved daughter of the King. You were created with purpose by God so that He could love you and make Himself known to you.. Don’t accept the world’s lies any longer because YOU ARE MORE than what you have settled for.

I encourage you to listen to the song, “Who Am I?” by a group called Casting Crowns. Try to watch it so that you can read all the lyrics. Drink it in deeply to your soul.

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For more about Relevant Women -

The purpose of Relevant Women:
Relevant Women exists to train women to minister relevantly, to discover and grow in God’s call in their lives and to serve in their churches as godly leaders.

RW accomplishes this by:
•Teaching life changing truth
•Building significant relationships
•Practicing spiritual disciplines
•Defining our personal stories
•Developing our personal ministry

At Relevant Ministry, our vision is to equip leaders to minister relevantly in churches that will be healthy and thriving.

Our mission, to fulfill this vision, is training future leaders - building healthy ministries - and serving on the Gulf Coast. 

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